05-09-2020, 11:45 AM
I finished my last exam for my degrees (!!!) at 2am last night and today, it feels like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders.
I'm a super ambitious 21 year old girl... not known for taking many breaks. When I got my first corporate job, I kept my other job as a bridal attendant and I would work 34 hours in a weekend on top of the 40 hours I did throughout week. For the first month of pursuing my Bachelor's, I kept both jobs while doing school and that really had me burnt out. Quit the weekend job, but slapped on two majors along the way. Experienced lots of burnouts over the past year. Even went through a transition into Cybersecurity without having my degrees yet.
I took a gap year after getting my AS in CompSci so I felt really insecure about graduating later than the folks I graduated high school/CC with. Pretty irrational reason I now realize looking back on it, but I was so stubborn to get through what I started because I already told so many people what my plans were. Lots and lots of pressure.
Not quite sure what the point of this is, but all I want to say is... taking a well-deserved break feels amazing. Closer to the end I started panicking since I felt like I had to begin the next stage in my academic career immediately but now I'm having second thoughts about it. I finally have time to pursue my interests (jumping between AWS development, Docker, Splunk, CISSP training, Nim programming and a Databricks tutorial) without feeling guilty about it. I have time to cook, read, exercise and meditate without that persistent feeling of anxiety from pushing off unenjoyable tasks. I got diagnosed with ADHD as an adult but that was always a common theme in my life.
I'm going to soak in this accomplishment and take it easy for a bit without planning too far into the future for a bit
I'm a super ambitious 21 year old girl... not known for taking many breaks. When I got my first corporate job, I kept my other job as a bridal attendant and I would work 34 hours in a weekend on top of the 40 hours I did throughout week. For the first month of pursuing my Bachelor's, I kept both jobs while doing school and that really had me burnt out. Quit the weekend job, but slapped on two majors along the way. Experienced lots of burnouts over the past year. Even went through a transition into Cybersecurity without having my degrees yet.
I took a gap year after getting my AS in CompSci so I felt really insecure about graduating later than the folks I graduated high school/CC with. Pretty irrational reason I now realize looking back on it, but I was so stubborn to get through what I started because I already told so many people what my plans were. Lots and lots of pressure.
Not quite sure what the point of this is, but all I want to say is... taking a well-deserved break feels amazing. Closer to the end I started panicking since I felt like I had to begin the next stage in my academic career immediately but now I'm having second thoughts about it. I finally have time to pursue my interests (jumping between AWS development, Docker, Splunk, CISSP training, Nim programming and a Databricks tutorial) without feeling guilty about it. I have time to cook, read, exercise and meditate without that persistent feeling of anxiety from pushing off unenjoyable tasks. I got diagnosed with ADHD as an adult but that was always a common theme in my life.
I'm going to soak in this accomplishment and take it easy for a bit without planning too far into the future for a bit
BS in Data Science & Analytics and BA in Computer Science and Mathematics at TESU (June 2019 to June 2020)
In-progress:
MS in Cybersecurity at NYU (January 2021 to December 2022?)
MCIT in Information Security and Assurance at NAU (September 2020 to March 2021)
In-progress:
MS in Cybersecurity at NYU (January 2021 to December 2022?)
MCIT in Information Security and Assurance at NAU (September 2020 to March 2021)