So..depressed? Distraught?

[LaterBloomer]

Sheesh. In my mind, I thought I had lost my mother's respect as I never got a college degree. I.Q.-wise, I was probably the brightest of the bunch, but the bunch has (at a minimum) bachelors degrees. There are masters, and a J.D. spread around. My thinking was she'd be so proud of me when I walked across the stage for graduation. I'd haul her up to lovely Trenton, NJ, and her 90+ year old face would be beaming. Reality alert. I told her that I passed Stats. Did I get an "atta girl?" Did I get, "Wow, stats. That's a hard course to pass?" Nope. Nada. Zilch. I got a, "so what else do you have to take?" I'm sweating blood over Business Stats. I've studied for the DSST more times than I can count. (I've never taken the test.) I tried ALEKS a couple of times. I started - and dropped - stats w/ Penn Foster before, and I FINALLY passed the thing, and that was her response. As an adult in my mid-fifties, you'd think I'd get over trying to impress my mother. (I flunked physics in high-school trying to impress Dad.) You'd be wrong. I am going to have to come to the realization that this is for me. Not to impress Mom. Not to get a better job (although that would be nice). But for me. For my satisfaction. I'll let you know how I get with that!